Empty womb

Lately I have had an empty feeling inside of me that Mark just can not understand. I want a baby. Now if you know anything about me you would know that I am physically unable to have anymore children. No uterus or tubes means no babies :( It seems that everywhere I look women I know are having babies or are pregnant. So I asked Mark if there was anyway he would be interested in adopting a baby. I explained to him that if you foster to adopt in the state of Texas you get free health insurance for the baby until age 18 and that the child also gets a free college education in the state if they so choose. He gently tried to tell me that he is going to be 36 in a few weeks and I am going to be 31 so we are just getting to the point where starting over is not a great option for us. This of course was after he said we were bad parents. So now I'm sad. There is just this emptiness that I am feeling and the ache inside my heart that I know I will never be able to explain to Mark.